友人Mさんの温かいサポートを得て２０日にT病院入り、昨日（２１日）に無事左股関節の手術を終えました。
手術着に着替えて、部屋で待っていると、看護師の方が車椅子で迎えに来てくださり、地下へ。両面扉の手術室へ入ると、何人もの人が次々に「麻酔担当の〇〇です」などと挨拶してくださり、その向こうに担当医のF先生。それまでにも病室を覗いてくださり「頑張りましょう！」のお声がけ。
手術台に乗るやいなや、両腕に色々な器具や注射、酸素マスクが掛けられて3度大きく深呼吸をすると麻酔薬が流れて完全に私の意識は無くなりました。どのぐらいの時間が経過したのでしょうか、「イノウエさ〜ん、終わりましたよ！」と声が聞こえ、目を開けると真ん中にF先生、その周りに数人のスタッフの人が私を覗き込んでいるのが見えたので「ありがとうございます」と言おうとするも、声が思うように出ない。気分はどうかと聞かれた時は最悪の状態。手術中か術後か覚えていませんが、気持ち悪くて息も苦しく頭が混乱状態。「死ぬかも」と暗い深い恐ろしい闇の中で「頑張らなければ」と闘っている自分がいました。初めての経験でした。ストレッチャーで上階のナースステーション隣の回復室に運ばれている時も気持ち悪さで目を開けることはできませんでした。点滴やチューブが体に入った状態で一晩まどろんで朝を迎えるうちに、気分の悪さは次第におさまり傷口の痛みも体を動かさなければそれほどでもなくなりました。
翌日は車椅子でレントゲン室に向かい、元の病室に移り食事を済ませ、リハビリが始まりました。F先生が回復室に様子を見に来た時に「滋賀は大雪ですよ」と教えてくださいました。東京は上天気。私の病室の窓からは陽が差し込んでいます。
今回、手術にかかわってくださったF先生はじめ全ての方に心から感謝いたします。また、入院・手術と知って心配してくださり、励まして下さった多くの友人知人に私はどれほど力をもらったかしれません。ありがとうございます。
皆様にお応えするためにも、私は一日も早く回復し元気になります。
Receiving a warm support from my friend、 M, I could get in the T Hospital on 20th, and got surgery of my left hip joint yesterday.
A nurse came and took me with a hospital gown to the operation room downstairs in a wheelchair. When I got into the operation room, five or six people approached me saying like " I'm 〇〇、in charge of anesthesia." and everybody greeted me. I saw Dr. F who was in charge of my operation. He came to my upper room earlier to chair me.
As soon as I laid down the operation table, my both arms were fixed and I was on oxygen, attaching several pieces of equipment to the body. When I took a deep breath, I instantly lost my conscience because of the anesthesia. I don't know how long it has been, but I heard the voice "Ms. Inoue, everything is over!" I opened my eyes and saw Dr. F' and other staff looking into me. I tried to say thank you but I could barely say it. When I was asked how I was feeling, it was the worst in my life. I felt very bad, couldn't breath well and was very confused. I don't remember when I felt that way, but I was in a deep, fearful darkness and it was very scary, and I thought I might die, but I was thinking I have to go through. It was the scariest experience of my life. They took me to the recovery room upstairs by stretcher, but I couldn't open my eyes because I still felt so bad.I stayed in the recovery room attaching several pieces of equipment to my body overnight. Then gradually I got back to the normal feeling.
The next day, afterI taking an X-ray, I moved to the original room and had breakfast. Then rehabilitation started. When Dr.F came to see me in the recovery room, he told me that Shiga was in an awful snow storm. I sympathized with how people in my place were having a difficult time there. Here, Tokyo is clear and has sunlight.
I am grateful to everyone involved in my operation. I also would like to send my thanks to the people who worry about me and send many warm message, and support. I can't tell how much it encouraged me. To respond to all these people's kindness, I will do my best and get well soon.
